something that always run inmyhead

ada beberapa hal yang ngeganjel di otak gue dan di hati gue, sesuai dgn judulnya
gue mau ngokongin itu disini, kalo di twiter kan gaenak terlalu 'publik'
tapi, gue pengen nulis pake kalimat ya kalo gangerti maaf ya, tanya tapi lagian ini agak privacy gitu dwecc
well, let's start
---its dedicated for the guy who i called chair
1. lo td ngejer apaan sih? dia, ato siapa? gue udah berbelok jd gue ngeliat lo
2. trs waktu itu lo tengok2 ke kelas ******. mau nyari siapa? setau gue dia gak disitu, ato gue? amin deh tapi apaitucuman kebetulan ato iseng2 lo aja ngeliat liat?
3. tadi gue ngomong, kenapa lo diem? knp lo gak ngerespek? lo speechless ato males? speechlessnya krn info yg gue kasih ato krn gue ngomong tiba2? kalo males, emg gue knp?
4. lo nyusurin ke atas, lo berhenti di nama dia dan ngeliat namanya? ato cuman sekedar nyusurin dan liat yg diatas lo? lo liat punya gue gak?
5. td pas lo duduk kok lo berdehem? sengaja ato gaksengaja?
6. pas lo ikutan kok lo ngomong ke gue? ato ke sebelah gue? tp kenapa ngomongnya pas saat itu? gue penasaran bgt
7. kelakuan lo ke dia itu spesial apa enggak? lo nganggep dia spesial apa enggak? lo ke dia itu cuman mau minjem ato lebih?
8. kenapa sifat lo beda sendiri ke gue? kalo ke yg lain baik gt2 tp ke gue hampir ke tingkat 'kurangasem' gue sih gak marah, tp itu cuman buat tetawaan doang ato lebih?
9. KENAPA LO SEKARANG BERUBAH? KENAPA LO KE GUE LEBIH DIEM? GUE GASUKA KAYAK GINI YA
10. pandangan lo ke gue gimana? perasaan lo?
11. this is the most important, dont you know that i love? do you have same feelings like mine?

OH GOD please dont make me be stressed, i need a full concetrate for this exam. i want to have good scores, i want make me proud of mine, my parents proud of me, and.... make him proud of me

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and these are for the one who i hate so damn much more than i hate anyone in this world, ya ya i know i'm a bad kid cause i hate someone like that and i usually used unpolite words. sorry for that, and let's what i'll write....

1. lo gapunya hak ya buat nasehatin gue ngatur gue nyuruh gue, NYADAR DONG LO ITU SIAPA GUE ITU SIAPA
2. kalo tolol tolol ajadeh ngaku aja, udah kenyataan kan dan jgn sok kepinteran, itu malah bikin lo jadi tambah tolol, fool
3. and this is the most important : dont you know that i hate so so so damn much, dont act like a shit cause you are. you've already being an unlimited bunch of sh*t and if-you-see-kay and a*****e

well well, i think thats all. err no maybe, just a little if note, for a 1st guy, iloveyou and try to do better, so i dont have to feel invisible anymore. and for the someone-who-i-hate-andlikeashit, just try to do more than 'better' so i dont have to feel like i must killed you


bye, sorry for my many many unpolite words in this post, i'll try to be a good kid, as i used to and two words more and they are will be the end of this post :
bye,
diah