11.27.2009

survive

hey all, its me again

i miss this blog, and i wanna write in bahasa hehe

maaf ya gue ngeblog kalo cuman lg ada masalah ato apa. tapi emang itu kan gunanya blog, buat cerita? walaupun banyak postingan gue yg isinya gajelas-an semua

gue lagi bingung plus sediiiiiiiiiiihhhh bgtt
gue ganyangka aja
tapi entah knp gue dpt bad feeling
gue tau 'itu'
gue ga sebodoh yg dia, atau me-re-ka kira
gue udah berusaha optimis dgn berfikir, it just a joke! dont take it tooo serious diah..
but how hard i've tried, than harder too to be optimist
thought that you are my bestfriend, but i was wrong, you're not
im soo thankfully to God cause i still have besties, some amazing besties that irrepleaceable : olivodydhea
i think i don't need her
she's not as nice/good/whatever as them
and you, boy
im really confused of you,
it just a joke or it's a little attention for me?
i-dont-know. really-dont-know
but i think it just a joke. your attention and love and allthosefuckedthings are for her rite? hey look, she doesnt even 'know' you
but they're all your choices, they arent my bussiness, im nothing for you. i knew it

*back to bahasa
girl, gue tau kok lo berusaha 'lebih' dr gue. emang hak lo ya buat suka sama siapa even the guy you love or like is same as your 'bestie' does. kalo dia milih lo, silahkan. its his choice. whatever he does, im happy if he is happy too, its because i love him. maybe i cant make him happy and maybe you can. so just go through

im okay. im fine. else? im pretending
exactly, im (trying to be) okay. im (trying to be) fine. else? and im (not) pretending



taun ini, 2009 emang jadi taun yg berat bgt buat gue. berat banget. masalah numpuk semua ditaun ini. semoga di taun 2010 bisa benerin hidup gue. masalah ga numpuk, gue gaksibuk, punya waktu luang, and yeahh wish that i'll have a happy ending at 2010

mungkin taun ini emang Allah ngasi ujian segitu banyaknya ke gue buat nguji kesabaran gue. gue mungkin kurang ibadah.tapi semua ada hikmahnya, gue disuruh sabar, and all those problems taught me how to solve problems, how to stay calm, how to be patient, and else

apa cerita gue kepanjangan? maaf ya campur aduk gini bahasanya hehe
maybe im going to sleep now, bye

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